So, almost everyone knows I have a bun in the oven! It's kind of exciting to know that everyone knows now and makes it alot easier for me to not keep it secret anymore.
Last doctors appointment went pretty well. Still can't hear a heartbeat, the cheeky bugger doesn't want to be heard!
Got my referral for my 19 week scan, and booked it straight away, I'm in for Monday Dec 20th 8:45am! So early! I am going to have to get up at 7am just to do my water prep!
Had a pretty crap past 20 hours or so. Went back to work after 6 days off to find out I was closing alone with one of the new boys. And tuesday/wednesdays there are no cleaners, so I started work and was talking to my boss about who was closing etc tonight and she confirmed it was just me and the new boy, in a joking tone I said "so when are you taking me off the closes?" she responds with "do you have a doctors certificate" to which I replied "no but I should get one, I just want day shifts" she started to get a bit narky replying "I can't change everyones hours just to suit you, if you want day shifts you can go to checkouts!" (CHECKOUTS IS THE LAST PLACE I WANT TO GO!!!) Which I took pretty badly, before she even knew I was pregnant she was hypothetically talking about what would happen if she fell pregnant, and she was saying she would be saying 'see you later' if it were to happen around christmas time, and she would want to work all the easier shifts, and its just fucked that now its actually happening, and to me, she couldn't give a stuff about the workload I have to do in a close.
I had to close seafood, clean the floors of seafood then come down to deli and clean deli floors which I am TERRIBLE at doing. On my way home I just burst into tears because I just CANT see myself doing this until I leave work.
I got home and vegged out on the couch for a while, when I got up I couldnt freaking walk! my back had just caved in, Im freaking out thinking it was gonna stay that way, but thankgod this morning its ok. If I were still in pain I was going to call in sick and get that freaking doctors certificate!
Poor kyle had to put up with me crying myself to sleep, and I KNOW its just the hormones, but Ive worked myself up to beleiving work would be considerate, and give me easier shifts as everyone else who falls pregnant there gets the easier stuff, but NO not me.
Called mum this morning, and she thinks I just need to suck it up, she got no special treatment at her work when she was preggers, and thinks I just asked too soon. I dunno, I just dont want anything bad to happen.
Gah, okay I think I have ranted enough!! Sorry for this blog to be a sooky la la one I just needed to get it all out of my system!!
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